I have learned this past week that I don’t like to deal with things for a long length of time. I am not a creature of change, or a creature of patience.
I’ve been doing a lot of private thinking and writing (hence why I’ve only published 8 posts this month). My stress level has been high lately with all this internal venting. I have been keeping everything inside and trying to put out my own fires left and right.
Then God said… “What am I? Do you not remember my promises to you?” and it hit me. I haven’t been coming to him at all. I’ve been thanking him every day for life and asking forgiveness for my sins, (which you should ask as soon as you realize you’ve sinned, because if you don’t acknowledge your sins, you’ll bet that the devil is already telling God. Better to hear it from you I think) but when it comes to my problems or issues, I’ve been so internally hush hush about it, that I forgot He’s there for my burdens too.
So I sat down and wrote to God. I wrote to God about everything that’s bothering me. Things showed up on that list that I didn’t even realize was bothering me at all. It was such a freeing experience. In Matthew 11: 28-30 Jesus said 28“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” And I did just that. I told God, here is my stress. Everything I have pent up for the last couple of weeks exposed for you to see.
To be honest, I felt guilty for giving it to him. Sure I was drowning in my battles, but they were MY battles; and I hated to have to pass it on for someone else to take care of. Then I remembered he’s not just ‘someone else,’ HE’S GOD! He wants to take all your burdens so you’re free to do His will. There is so much love in that last sentence that it’s just hard to fathom someone so willing and patient.
I am blessed. We are blessed. We have a God who is willing to say,” Give it to me babygirl, I’ll take care of it. Just relax.” The hardest part to understand is that I don’t deserve it. I’m a sinner and he’s still willing to love me and all my ugly truths.
Is anyone experiencing the pain of suffering right now? However large or small it may seem? I implore you to sit down and talk to God however way you do it. He’s waiting patiently (the gentleman that he is) for you to come and ask for His help.
♥ Sherilene
Any thoughts?